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Matt (MattHill), Ectopic Cushing’s

October 24, 2025

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Diagnosis: Stage 2 small cell lung cancer causing high levels of Cortisol, low testosterone and thyroid

Hi, I’m a 46 year old male academic working on US politics qlat University in England. I had 18 months of hospital referrals before my GP realised I had Cushing’s and was diagnosed in March 2020.

I went through a series of investigations and the cause of it was a small cell tumour in my lung. I am currently undergoing chemo and start radiotherapy this week.

I’m a complex case apparently and my biggest problem at the moment is my back pain both acute spasms and muscle ache.

 

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Medical Mysteries: Were Wedding Jitters Making Her Sick?

October 13, 2025

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Bridget Houser felt despairing. In the months before her 2018 wedding, Houser, who had never struggled with her weight, noticed that it inexplicably began to creep up. In response she doubled the length of her runs to eight miles, took back-to-back high intensity workout classes and often consumed only water, coffee and fruit during the day before a spartan, mostly vegetable, dinner.

Yet no matter what Houser did, her weight stubbornly increased and her oval face grew round, a transformation that was glaringly obvious in comparison with her identical twin sister.

Houser wondered whether the five pounds she gained despite her herculean effort was a corollary of other problems. For the previous two years she had battled a string of maladies: first daily headaches, then crippling anxiety, followed by insomnia, hair loss and acne, something she’d never endured as a teenager.

“Stress was the universal explanation,” recalled Houser, a controller for a small business in Chicago. When doctors suggested that her upcoming marriage might be a cause of her problems, Houser considered, then rejected, the theory. It just didn’t jibe with her feelings.

In early 2019, about six months after her wedding, Houser insisted that her doctors perform several tests. They ultimately revealed that her symptoms weren’t the result of stress or marital misgivings but of a serious illness that had been smoldering for years.

After successful treatment followed by a long recovery Houser, now 34, feels far better than she did during those miserable years in her late 20s.

“I wish I’d been nicer to myself and not blamed myself for what was going on,” she said.

Getting through the wedding

In 2016 Houser began experiencing daily pain in the back of her head, a common spot for tension headaches. When the headaches failed to improve with dietary changes or nonprescription pain relievers, she consulted her primary care doctor, followed by a neurologist who told her she had migraines.

Houser, then 27, noticed that the headaches were worse when she wore contact lenses. “It was affecting my daily life and I talked myself into thinking the problem was my contacts,” she said. She decided Lasik surgery might help and in October 2017 underwent the procedure, which uses a laser to reshape the cornea, reducing or eliminating dependence on contacts or glasses.

Her vision improved and the pain disappeared — briefly. A week after eye surgery, her headaches returned. “I wasn’t overly concerned,” Houser said. “I know a lot of people have headaches.”

A few months later for no apparent reason Houser developed “really bad anxiety. It wasn’t just like I was anxious,” she recalled. “I couldn’t function. I’m Type A so I knew what anxiety is, but not to this degree.”

One weekday morning in early 2018 she felt so overwhelmed that she took a sick day, then called her twin, Molly, and their mother and told them she needed help immediately.

They managed to schedule a same-day appointment with a psychiatrist whom Houser began seeing regularly, along with a therapist. The psychiatrist zeroed in on her impending wedding and told Houser that the event can cause “huge anxiety.” She began taking an antidepressant along with Ativan, an anti-anxiety drug she used when things got really bad. She also ramped up her yoga practice, hoping it might calm her.

Houser vividly remembers riding the escalator to her office one morning “and in my head I kept saying, ‘I’m in trouble, I’m in trouble,’” although she didn’t know what was wrong.

Her changing appearance had become a source of great unhappiness. Although her weight remained in the normal range, Houser couldn’t figure out why she was gaining weight after drastically slashing her food intake and dramatically ramping up exercise. Her normally thick hair had thinned so noticeably that her hairdresser gently advised her to consult a doctor.

Houser’s psychiatrist thought her hair loss might be caused by her antidepressant and switched medications. That didn’t seem to help.

Houser was particularly bothered by her newly chubby face. “It was like a joke in my family,” she said, adding that she was teased about being overly sensitive.

Even her wedding day was colored by unhappiness about her appearance and the intense amorphous anxiety that seemed omnipresent.

“Rather than think about how excited I was,” Houser recalled, “it was ‘How can I get through this day?’”

Normal thyroid

After her wedding Houser felt worse. She developed severe insomnia, night sweats and acne. In February 2019 a nurse practitioner in her primary care practice ordered tests of her thyroid, which were normal. When Houser pressed for additional testing, she was referred to an endocrinologist. He told her she was stressed.

Dissatisfied, she saw a second endocrinologist who agreed with the first. “She said ‘I don’t think there’s anything wrong with you’” metabolically, Houser recalled. The second endocrinologist’s nurse even revisited the marriage question in the presence of Houser’s husband, Doug, who had accompanied her to the appointment. “She said ‘I knew on my honeymoon I shouldn’t have gotten married,’” Houser remembered her saying. “‘Are you in a happy marriage?’ I couldn’t believe it.”

Months earlier, the nurse practitioner who ordered the thyroid tests briefly mentioned measuring levels of cortisol, a hormone involved in the body’s response to stress and other functions. Elevated levels of cortisol can indicate Cushing’s syndrome, an uncommon hormonal disorder that occurs when the body produces too much of the hormone over a prolonged period.

“She had thrown cortisol testing out there and I think it was always in the back of my mind,” Houser said.

She asked the second endocrinologist to order cortisol tests. The doctor agreed, but not before telling Houser that she didn’t think she had Cushing’s because she lacked the classic symptoms: major weight gain, purple stretch marks and a fatty hump between the shoulders. Houser did have the “moon face” characteristic of Cushing’s that is also seen in people who take high doses of steroids for long periods to treat various illnesses — but Houser wasn’t taking steroids. Insomnia, headaches, acne and anxiety can be symptoms of Cushing’s.

There are several forms of Cushing’s syndrome, which typically results from a tumor — usually benign but sometimes cancerous — in the pituitary or adrenal gland that pumps out excess cortisol. Sometimes tumors develop elsewhere in the body such as the lungs or pancreas. Cushing’s affects roughly five times as many women as men and typically occurs between the ages of 30 and 50. If left untreated, it can be fatal.

A trio of tests measuring cortisol levels in Houser’s blood, urine and saliva were significantly elevated; the amount in her urine was eight times higher than normal. The formerly skeptical Chicago endocrinologist told Houser she had Cushing’s and referred her to James Findling, a Milwaukee endocrinologist who is internationally recognized for his treatment of the disease.

“I was just so happy to have a diagnosis,” Houser recalled.

Revealing photos

Findling asked Houser to bring photographs taken several years earlier to her October 2018 appointment. It is a request he makes of patients as a way of spotting telltale physical manifestations. In Houser’s case, the facial change was particularly striking because she is an identical twin.

Findling noted that delayed diagnosis is typical, because physical changes and other symptoms tend to occur gradually and insidiously. Houser, he added, “didn’t look like the typical Cushing’s patient. She wasn’t obese and she didn’t have diabetes or hypertension. It was more subtle than many cases.”

The next step was determining the location of the tiny tumor. Tests found nothing in Houser’s pituitary or adrenal glands, and CT scans of her pelvis, chest and abdomen were clean. Findling ordered a dotatate PET scan, a highly sensitive CT scan that can find tumors that elude conventional imaging. The scan revealed a nodule in Houser’s left lung.

Houser sought a second opinion from a thoracic surgeon in Chicago. While Findling and a thoracic surgeon at Milwaukee’s Froedtert Hospital strongly recommended that she undergo surgery to remove the tumor, the Chicago doctor disagreed. He said he didn’t think the lung nodule was causing Cushing’s and recommended that Houser continue therapy and anti-anxiety medication.

“Do you know what it’s like to wake up from surgery and to not be better?” she remembers him asking her.

After deliberating with her husband and conferring with her Milwaukee doctors, Houser opted for surgery performed Oct. 30, which removed part of her left lung. A pathologist determined that the nodule was a rare, slow-growing neuroendocrine lung cancer known as a bronchial carcinoid, which can cause Cushing’s. The Stage 2 cancer had spread to a nearby lymph node.

“Fortunately I think we got it early,” Findling said. “She’s had a sustained remission and a cure of her Cushing’s.”

“The cancer didn’t rock my world,” said Houser, who had previously had a melanoma skin cancer removed. (Doctors have told her they don’t think the cancers are related.) “It was about not having Cushing’s anymore, which was more important.”

So why didn’t Houser’s doctors, among them endocrinologists, suspect Cushing’s?

Findling, who estimates he has treated as many as 2,000 people with the disease in his 40-year career, said that while doctors are taught that Cushing’s is rare, it’s not. He cites a 2016 study, which that found that 26 of 353 endocrinology patients were found to have the disease.

Textbook descriptions, which include the presence of purple stretch marks and a hump, are “almost a caricature,” Findling observed. “It’s pretty well recognized that Cushing’s is more subtle than that … and can cause neuropsychiatric and neurocognitive problems.”

Houser’s normal weight and the fact that she didn’t have high blood pressure or diabetes may have misled doctors.

“I think we’ve moved the needle a little bit, especially among endocrinologists,” he continued, adding that “the threshold for screening has got to change. Once you tell a primary care doctor that it’s a rare disorder, it goes in one ear and out the other. They think they’ll never see it.”

“When you make this diagnosis it can have fabulous outcomes,” he added, citing Houser’s case. “That’s why I’m still doing this at my age.”

Houser considers Findling to be her “literal lifesaver.” She spent the next year seeing him as she was slowly weaned off medications to normalize her hormone levels and recover her strength.

She is monitored for Cushing’s annually, remains cancer-free and, other than residual fatigue, feels well. In October 2021 she gave birth to a daughter. Her son was born eight weeks ago.

Houser regards the help provided by her family, particularly her husband whom she called “my biggest supporter,” as essential. That seems especially ironic because stress about their marriage had been blamed for symptoms that were actually caused by a cancer.

“He was a huge help in calling doctors and making the necessary appointments when I didn’t have the energy to fight anymore.” His unwavering love, she said, was “a testament to our strong marriage.”

From https://www.washingtonpost.com/wellness/2023/10/07/weight-anxiety-wedding-medical-mysteries/

In Memory of Alice Baker ~ October 3, 2002

October 3, 2025

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in-memory

Thursday, October 3, 2002

Alice died of lung cancer and Cushing’s.

Judy wrote: “Monday I called to see how Alice Baker was doing and found out she had passed away Thursday. I had a long talk with Alice’s husband. He wanted me to tell everyone how much your cards and the flowers meant to Alice. He said “How wonderful, the flowers arrived from California, and Alice enjoyed them so much. She also enjoyed each card. ”

“Alice was a true fighter, she was more concerned about Cushing’s than she was the cancer. She was 69 years old.

“Mr. Baker asked me where he could send a thank you and I gave him CUSH address, as he also said their daughters wanted to thank everyone.

“Listen, these are sad times but really it is far better to know we are able to help someone. It is so much better for the person in need to be surrounded by love and prayers. I know she felt that. MaryO thanks again for sending those flowers and everyone for praying for Alice. I know she is looking down on us and pushing us on to do what we can to get the word out.”

Official obituary

Vicky, Pituitary Bio

September 8, 2025

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I was finally diagnosed with Cushings Disease in November 2012 and had the tumour removed from the Pituaitary Gland in Dec 2012.

I got an infection in the brain on the site of the tumour and was ill for 3 months.  It is the most terrible disease and as a result of this I have now got many more things wrong with me.

i recently was diagnosed with breast cancer and I am sure that it has been caused by the Cushings.

If anyone else has the same experience I would be glad to hear from them.

 

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In Memory of Janice ~ Tuesday, September 4, 2001

September 4, 2025

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in-memory

Tuesday, September 4, 2001

The ribbons
used in Janice’s memory.

On the message boards, Lorrie wrote: Our dear friend, Janice died this past Tuesday, September 4, 2001. I received an IM from her best friend Janine, tonight. Janine had been reading the boards, as Janice had told her about this site, and she came upon my name and decided to IM me. I am grateful that she did. She said that she knew that Janice would want all of us to know that she didn’t just stop posting.

For all of the newcomers to the board that did not know Janice, she was a very caring individual. She always had something positive to say. Janice was 36 years old, was married and had no children. She had a miscarriage in December and began to have symptoms of Cushing’s during that pregnancy. After the pregnancy, she continued to have symptoms. When discussing this with her doctor, she was told that her symptoms were just related to her D&C. She did not buy this and continued until she received the accurate diagnosis of Cushing’s Syndrome (adrenal) in March of 2001. Tragically, Janice’s tumor was cancerous, a very rare form of Cushing’s.

Janice then had her tumor and adrenal gland removed by open adrenalectomy, a few months ago. She then began chemotherapy. She was very brave through this even though she experienced severe side effects, including weakness and dizziness. She continued to post on this board at times and even though she was going through so much, she continued with a positive attitude. She even gave me a referral to a doctor a few weeks ago. She was my inspiration. Whenever I thought I had it bad, I thought of what she was dealing with, and I gained more perspective.

Janice was having difficulty with low potassium levels and difficulty breathing. She was admitted to the hospital, a CT scan was done and showed tumor metastasis to the lungs. She then was begun on a more aggressive regimen of chemo. She was discharged and apparently seemed to be doing well.

The potassium then began to drop again, she spiked a temp and she was again admitted to the hospital. She improved and was set to be discharged and then she threw a blood clot into her lungs. She was required to be put on a ventilator. She apparently was at high risk for a heart attack. Her husband did not want her to suffer anymore and did not want her to suffer the pain of a heart attack and so chose for the doctors to discontinue the ventilator on Tuesday. She died shortly thereafter.

Funeral services will be on Tuesday.

Janice was our friend. She was a Cushie sister. I will always remember her. Janine asked me to let her know when we get the Cushing’s ribbons made as she and the rest of Janice’s family would like to wear them in her memory. She said that Janice would want to do anything she could to make others more aware of Cushing’s.

A Poem written in Janice’s Memory:

JANICE’s POEM

When I Am Done
When the leaves settle
Among the earths soil
Then will I find peace
For all my work and toil.

Know not I when it will be
But of its happening, it’s a certainty
For once sick in body
Though healed in time
Can never be wiped clean
Of the illnesses grime.

The stamp of death
Left upon this soul
Will never have reason to fear
It’s pearly gates that have come, for some
But for me only when I am done.

~Adrienne Lilley

Written in Janice’s memory, may she rest in peace always.

One thing about Cushings—I no longer fear death. But I sure do embrace life.

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Voices from the Past: Sonja D (Kiwi), Ectopic Bio

July 15, 2025

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Diagnosed in 2003 with a Carcinoid Lung Tumour which was surgically removed in May 2003.

After a number of years of “not feeling myself” and consulting with the family doctor, it wasn’t until I showed him hair growth on my face and asked him if we had completed all and every test possible related to hormones.

Two tests to do; one was cortisol and the other testesterone.  Results were in the next day, showing cortisol levels four times the normal range.  Bingo!  it was like I had won the lottery.

A flurry of additional tests were conducted, a visit to an Internal Medicine Specialist and finally a referral to the Endocrinologists at the University Hospital.  On meeting the endocrinologist her first words were: “It’s very nice to meet you.  I’m very excited you were able to come in today’.  Is she nuts, I thought.  Since when is a doctor “excited” to meet a patient?  This was the beginning of a most wonderful patient/doctor relationship and it continues today along with the full team of endocrins at this hospital.

It was confirmed I had Ectopic Cushing’s Syndrome in February 2011.  My health deteriorated rapidly with no sign of any tumour which was likely the cause of the extremely elevated ACTH and Cortisol levels.   A Bilateral Adrenalectomy was performed in May 2011 and in November 2011 the elusive lung tumour was sighted in the same location as the one removed in 2003.  It has not grown in the last six months so it is being left “undisturbed” at this stage.

Voices from the Past: Lili, Pituitary Post-Op Update

July 5, 2025

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hi there…

i had the pituitary surgery.  They said i am cured (of course it could come back) but the day after surgery my acth level was 3.7 and the next day it was 1.  They consider that a cure.

it is a very painful recovery for me and i am documenting each day.

The headaches and pressure in my head were so awful and painful but have now on day 6 subsided.  They had to cut my septum to get through and i had a bone spur too so maybe that added to it…my nose was, still is i am sure, packed and i can’t blow my nose till July 12!  The nausea was bad too.  The cortisol withdrawal hasn’t been so horrible yet.  They have me on a taper program of each week taking less.

The tumor was towards the left side and the surgeon who was Dr. Van Gompel at Mayo was aggressive in the amount of tissue he took out as he said it was soft.  He wanted a “home run”.  I asked after if he got the home run and he said yes.

The whole Mayo experience was strange.  You don’t really get to call and speak to the doctor after you see them…you get a “desk” and a message gets sent.  The endocrinologist is the only one who calls back personally but I guess that is a lot.  I would highly recommend her and don’t know all her info except her name is Dr. Irina Bancos at the Mayo clinic.  Things just fell into place there.  As you know I was only scheduled for the IPSS but when she saw how symptomatic I was and all my levels she picked up the phone on a Tuesday and had me scheduled for surgery Friday morning.  A one stop shop.  I was scared and there alone but got through it.

The next 3-12 months will be difficult.  I am currently on some pain meds and muscle relaxers but in touch with my sponsor daily and we decided I don’t have to be a martyr.  I just need to check myself and get off them as soon as I get these headaches under control.

Mary, I’d like to stay active on your site.  I’ve learned so much that helped prepare me for the doctors appointments and the procedures that I’d like to give back anything I can in the way of my experience of living with the symptoms and not knowing what was wrong with me to fighting for a diagnosis to the cure.  Please let me know the best way I can do this and you may post this if you’d like.  Maybe edit out the pain meds and sponsor part as I don’t think many would relate to that but who knows.

I just know I am grateful to you and this site.

Lili

 

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In Memory: Diana Crosley

June 18, 2025

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Portland, OR, Cushing’s Conference, October 2003, Day 2, at a “House of Magic” dinner.

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Portland, OR, Cushing’s Conference, October 2003, Day 3. It was very windy on the Oregon Coast!

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Brighton, MI: Cushing’s Weekend, October 2005

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Columbus, OH Cushing’s meeting, 2007

Diana’s official obituary from Adams Funeral Home:

Diana Lynn Alexander Crosley, age 58, of Sidney, passed away peacefully on Wednesday, June 18, 2014, at 10:10 p.m. at her residence surrounded by her loving family.  She was born September 30, 1955, in Sidney, the daughter of Francis Alexander, and the late Laverne Egbert Alexander.

Diana is survived by her father and step-mother, Francis and Carole Alexander, of Sidney; daughters, Stacie Crosley, of Columbus, Casey Crosley, of Silver Spring, Maryland, Ericka Crosley, of Sidney; one granddaughter, Ella Laws, of Sidney; two sisters, Kathy and Randy Watercutter, of Minster, and Susan Alexander, of Mt. Vernon, Missouri.

Diana was a 1973 graduate of Anna High School. She was a registered nurse for many years. In her spare time she enjoyed meditating and doing yoga. She also enjoyed relaxing at the beach in Florida.

Her family, her children and especially her granddaughter, was the love of her life. She will be deeply missed by all.

The Crosley family would like to express their sincere thanks to Ms. Lisa Blagg and the entire staff of Wilson Hospice for the continued compassionate care of their mother during her extended illness.

Funeral services will be held on Saturday, June 21, 2014, at 3:00 p.m., at the Adams Funeral Home, 1401 Fair Road, Sidney.

Family and friends may call from 12-3 p.m. on Saturday, prior to services at the funeral home.

Memorial contributions may be made to Wilson Memorial Hospice in Diana’s memory.
Envelopes will be available at the funeral home.

Diana’s Cushing’s Help bio:

As with everyone who suffers from this disease, mine is a rather long story.

In retrospect, I believe I became symptomatic sometime around 1994. Particularly, I remember the weight gain and facial hair. I was also somewhat depressed, but at the time I was in an emotionally and physically abusive relationship and had a lot of “on the job stress” in my position as a psychiatric nurse, working for an HMO. In addition, my grandmother was ill, I turned 40 and I attributed most of my problems to “life” In 1995, I accepted a job transfer from Dayton, Oh to Birmingham, Al. My grandmother had died and I needed to get away from the relationship. Unfortunately, the office in B-ham closed after approx 18months and I accepted a position as RN/Medical director at a residential facility for children with autism, seizure disorders and behavioral problems.

Meanwhile, I continued to gain weight, I began to notice some “swelling” on the back of my neck, I bruised very easily and had problems concentrating. I went on the Phen-fen diet and lost approx 40 lbs. Of course, now I’m wondering How did that happen? If the weight gain was Cushing related In June of 1998, I was thrown from a horse and fractured my pelvis in two places. Again unfortunately, the initial x-ray didn’t reveal any breaks, so I continued to work in extreme pain. My physician kept saying I was “just a slow healer”

At this point my blood pressure skyrocketed, the slightest scratch or bump would result in a major hematoma and skin tear. I had a cardiac work-up and was told I had ischemic tissue in my left ventricle and was sent to Houston for a cardiac cath.

Ok this part’s kind of funny, now of course at the time I couldn’t believe it. If anyone’s familiar with Houston, you know how terrible the traffic can be. I arrived for the cath, at 8am I was prancing like a wild animal in my room as I waited for the nurse to bring me my “sedative” At approx 11:00 she came in and began to take my vitals. Almost simultaneously, she was paged, returned to my room to tell me that the cardiologist had broken his tooth while eating a muffin for breakfast and all his procedures for the day were cancelled. I had to reschedule. Thankfully, when I did have the cath, he told my my heart” was beautiful” When I asked about the results that said I had dying tissue he replied “Oh, that must have been a blurp on the film”.

Moving on, even though my heart was fine, I had now regained all of the weight I had lost and was in constant pain. I then moved to Florida to stay with a friend’s mother, who had suffered a stroke. I began working per diem as a Home Health RN. I kept getting worse in all areas. I went to a doctor in Fl. who told me I was depressed and getting older, ergo all my problems. He told me that the buffalo hump was a fatty lipoma and referred me to a surgeon to have it removed. I went to a surgeon for a consult, was scheduled for surgery and my COBRA ran out on my insurance and I couldn’t afford to continue it.

I then went to a plastic surgeon, who confirmed it was a fatty lipoma, of course One of the biggest he had ever seen. He even photographed it to use for teaching seminars. And don’t you know, it grew right back. I spent 1700.00 (on credit) and it came back. At this point, I was having trouble standing, sitting, lying down. I was in constant pain and was having a lot of problems just trying to do my job. I went to another physician who thought I was depressed and maybe had leukemia because my lab work was all screwed up. Here again, the bad news was I was dying but it might take twenty years for the leukemia to kill me. At this point, I was ready to hang it all up.

Then, in Aug of 2001, I had just seen my last patient and was on my way to the office to complete the paperwork when a young man did a U-turn and t-boned me on the driver’s side. This just about put me over the edge, however, again, on the bright side, I went to a chiropractor, whom I had been seeing, and she ordered an MRI of my back. The MRI also, incidentally, revealed massive bilateral, adrenal hyperplasia.

I contacted the Nurse’s Endocrine Society. They sent info on Cushing’s. I could not believe the sketching of the women with Cushing’s it looked just like me. I also fit the symptom profile, almost completely. I was referred to an endocrinologist in Melbourne, FL. He did the 24-hour urines and dex test, confirmed the diagnosis, I was already convinced. He contacted the NIH as I didn’t have health insurance. I had a bilateral adrenalectomy (right side laproscopically and open left side as I began to bleed) Jan 17, 2002. I was discharged on Jan 26th.

I came to Ohio to stay with my daughters while I recovered, never thinking in my wildest imagination that that process would be so lengthy and utterly miserable. I hurt everywhere like I had never hurt before. I developed a serious sinus infection I went back to Florida in Feb. I stayed with friends. I applied for disability, I hoped for a worker’s comp settlement for my back injury. The insurance company who was handling my claim filed Chap 11 and all pay outs were suspended. They did pay for some physical therapy. There contention is that it was the Cushing’s that was my major problem and not related to the accident, however, duh! They’re right, but because I had the Cushing’s the injury I incurred in the accident was more severe than the average person would have sustained.

When I went to the NIH in Jan the chest X-ray revealed multiple healing rib fractures which were most likely a result of the accident. So, I’m still awaiting word on my disability, I was denied, appealed, denied again and am waiting for the hearing. In the meantime, my car was repossessed, I will most likely have to file bankruptcy and am now staying with my oldest daughter in Columbus.

I have lost approx 55lbs, my skin is healed, my buffalo hump and moon face are gone. I am still in quite a bit of pain in my joints, muscles and bones. I don’t have the energy I would like to have and I still have spacey moments. The mental part has been tough. A lot of days I really wanted to be dead. I was on morphine for my pain and I was so sick I would start vomiting and it would go on for 24-36-48 hrs. I finally quit taking the morphine and thank God, that has stopped. I am relying on my family and friends for everything and I’m used to being the giver, not the taker. I guess I’m learning to be humble and I am so much better, it’s just that I’ve just gotten access to the internet, and have been reading the chat board and message board and it seems that I am still a “slow healer”

It has been one year since that surgery and I guess my expectations were that if I kept trying to be patient, get through this year things would be back to a semblance of normalcy. OK I know I’m wordy.

Thanks for the support and I would welcome input from anyone.

Diana

Update January 28, 2011

It’s been awhile since I’ve been on the boards and I’ve tried to update my bio on occasion. However, due to my impaired technical abilities (lol) I was unable to figure out how to do so, even though Mary has made it SO easy. Again, lol

Anyway, the first five yrs post BLA were painful and traumatic but also a blessing. In 2005 I started taking yoga classes and that was the beginning of an amazing transformation for me. It led to meditation and an exploration of the spiritual meaning of this illness and of life in general. Of course the transformation wasn’t immediate and it is ongoing but I feel so blessed to be experiencing this life. I’ve learned to be grateful for the gifts of all of my experiences. Without Cushings, I never would have met some of the most caring and amazing people on this earth.

In July of 2008 I returned to Florida. I am now living in a little beach town, bought a bicycle and ride it almost every day. I still have pain, but it’s manageable and I focus on my breath and gratitudes as a way of managing it. I’ve learned the value of positive thoughts and intentions. I’ve learned that we are all more powerful than we may have ever imagined. I’ve met some amazing people here and continue to read and attent seminars and classes on exploring my purpose in this life and the gifts I have to give to the universe.

To all who are just beginning this Cushing’s journey, and for those experiencing the feeling of “no light at the end of the tunnel” -the light is there, just waiting for your arrival.

You can and will get through this, your life is not over.

Again, many thanks to Mary O who has given her gifts to help other souls navigate their way through a painful time

Much love to all
Diana

30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know

April 20, 2025

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I’ve been thinking about this since the article I posted on doctors not understanding what it was like for a post-op Cushing’s disease patient – ME!  I’m updating this for Cushings Awareness Month 2025.

I originally posted this on Facebook way back in 2010.

Edits from November 21, 2015 are in blue italic
Edits from September 25, 2023 are in red italic
Edits from February 29, 2024 are in green italic
Edits from April 2025 are in purple italic

November 21, 2010 at 6:31pm

I really liked Jessica’s list, so I decided to make one of my own.  I was looking in my blog for what I wrote already about Psalm 116 and found out that I already did a very similar list in September 2009.  Talk about bad memory!

30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know

1. The illnesses I live with are: Cushing’s Disease and kidney cancer (renal cell carcinoma). I also have secondary adrenal insufficiency as well as a growth hormone deficiency. I had pituitary surgery on November 3, 1987 and had my kidney cancer (kidney and adrenal gland) removed May 9, 2006.  Having my adrenal gland removed acerbates my post-op pituitary issues. My one remaining adrenal gland doesn’t work well and I cannot replace my deficient growth hormone because I had cancer.

November 21, 2015:  I haven’t added anything much to this list – HOORAY!  OTOH, nothing has gone away, either.  

A couple days/nights a month, I have unexplained, random itching.  It could be on my foot, then jump to my stomach, then anywhere. It keeps me awake at night and is very annoying.  I originally had this in menopause and I’m very annoyed that it has come back.

I mentioned this to my endo last year because of the possibility of “hormone withdrawal” and he said I should probably talk to my PCP about this, and that it could be “serious”.  I haven’t yet because I don’t like the possibility of tracking down some other dread, unknown disease.  According to that great doctor, Wikipedia: 

Causes of formication include normal states such as onset of menopause (i.e. hormone withdrawal). Other causes are medical conditions such as pesticide exposure, mercury poisoning, diabetic neuropathy, skin cancer, syphilis, Lyme disease or herpes zoster (shingles). Formication can also be a result of stimulant intoxication (e.g. methamphetamines, cocaine) or alcohol withdrawal in alcoholics (i.e. delirium tremens), and is often accompanied by visual hallucinations of insects.

Also, I’ve been having terrible swelling, and pain in my left ring finger.  I will see my PCP about that on Wednesday after having this for about 8 months or so.  I looked up the possibilities on Dr. Google and there are too many to contemplate.  I hope it’s not arthritis.  I already know I can’t take meds for that.

September 25, 2023 – I’m able to take growth hormone injections – Omnitrope – again but I don’t see it making any difference.

In March of 2023 I had a total left knee replacement after many steroid injections and one series of hyaluronic acid.  I documented all that in another of my blogs. I am expecting to do the right knee possibly in the fall of 2024 but I’m putting it off as long as possible.

February 3, 2025 I had a total right knee replacement.  It was “easier than the left but I developed an allergy to something which is yet unknown and I had a terrible itch rash for about a month.

2. I was diagnosed with Cushing’s in the year: 1985; adrenal insufficiency in 1999; GH deficiency in 2004 and kidney cancer in 2006.

November 21, 2015:  Somehow, I forgot that I was diagnosed with osteoarthritis in the early 1980’s and took NSAIDs for about 30 years.  Those are another kidney cancer no-no.

In April of 2021 I had a Mohs Surgery for Squamous Cell Carcinoma.  A description and photos are available here: https://maryomedical.com/2021/05/09/the-mohs-nose/

 

3. But I had Cushing’s symptoms since: 1983 for sure.  Looking back, I can trace some other symptoms to the 1970s.

 

4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: Sleeping so much.  When I say I have to sleep, that’s it, no matter where I am, no matter what I’m doing.  From the cancer – not being able to take my arthritis meds.

 

5. Most people assume: I am completely healthy.  I had surgery, so everything is fine.  I am, however, lazy.

 

6. The hardest part about mornings are: getting up.  I could sleep until at least noon if I didn’t have an alarm AND something specific to do.  It’s also hard to get my joints so they work.  Sometimes I have a hard time standing.  I have a footed cane beside the bed to help me get up.

November 21, 2015:  I seem to be getting up earlier.  I have an issue with a joint on my ring finger, left hand.  It often throbs at night and wakes me up.

2023-2024, I seem to be waking up about 1 or so.  I guess because my 2-3 hour naps, my body is treating bedtime as just another nap.

2024-2025. I’m waking up about 3 and doing some online work, then napping for about 30 minutes to an hour until my alarm goes off at 9

7. My favorite medical TV show is: House.  I started watching it because an episode about Cushing’s was loosely based on a Cushie I know.

November 21, 2015:  House doesn’t seem to be on anymore so I no longer have a favorite medical TV show.

 

8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: Wow, so many. My iPhone is the main one with a few others very close.

November 21, 2015:  iPad now.

 

9. The hardest part about nights are: Staying asleep.  I’m always tired but I often have to get up to go the the bathroom.  Then, I often have trouble getting back to sleep.

November 21, 2015:  Dreams, some scary, some that just play like endless loops until I get up.  I still get up for the bathroom, too. Pain, sometimes that itching. 

 

10. Each day I take __ pills & vitamins: Not much.  I only take Cortef and lisinopril/HCTZ.  I used to take a lot of other meds but, due to having only one kidney, I can’t take much of anything, including vitamin C, aspirin and NSAIDs.  I pray I don’t get headaches anymore!

November 21, 2015:  Nowadays, it’s only the Cortef.
If absolutely necessary, I take Alavert for allergies and Benadryl if I’m in an itchy pattern; Tylenol for headaches.  

Because of the cancer, I can’t take Growth Hormone any more.

September 25, 2023 – I’m able to take growth hormone injections – Omnitrope – again but I don’t see it making any difference.

 

11. Regarding alternative treatments I: have to clear anything I take or do with my kidney cancer surgeon so it’s easier to just not take anything.

 

12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: What I have.  While I wish people would understand better, I don’t want anyone to feel pity or single me out.

 

13. Regarding working and career: I’ve been fortunate – I’ve been a piano teacher forever and I can control my hours to get in naps when I need them.  I could not work a 40-hour job.

November 21, 2015:  I still teach piano, although it’s hard to play now due to that joint issue.  I also am webmaster for my church, for my husband’s company and the Cushing’s sites.  I also inherited my friend’s menopause site when she died.  So, there’s a lot of stuff to do, but I can still work naps in.  I still could not work a normal work day.

September 25, 2023 – I still teach piano, am the Director of Communications for my church and keep the Cushing’s sites going – sort of.  I still take a lot of naps.

 

14. People would be surprised to know: that I have trouble dealing with so many things.

 

15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: that I can’t be the Energizer Bunny any more.  No project days where lots of stuff gets done.

 

16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: start a website and support group to help others.

 

17. The commercials about my illness: NONE!

 

18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: I miss Sweet Adelines.  I loved the singing, the dressing up in sequins and false eyelashes to sing before huge crowds.  Almost like being on Broadway.  I also miss playing violin in a local orchestra.

January 2024, I bought a silent e-violin so I can start practicing again without bothering my 100-year-old mom. In March I joined a balalaika orchestra!

In 2025 I’m sill playing with the balalaika orchestra

19. It was really hard to have to give up:my arthritis meds.

 

20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: Naps, sleeping.

 

21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: I cannot even imagine.  I could join a gym again, although for only one day it wouldn’t do much.  I could commit to doing something in the afternoons without napping before.  I could get some of my house tidied up…

 

22. My illness has taught me: a lot about hormones, glands, medical terms and… HTML.  I almost think I could have gone to med school if I’d had the stamina.

 

23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: “Oh, my friend’s dog (or cat/horse/ferret) had that [Cushing’s].  The vet just gave the dog some pills and she was fine.  GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

 

24. But I love it when people: listen to me when I try to tell them a bit about Cushing’s, even if it is a dumbed-down version.

February 15-16, 2024 I had the opportunity to be in both Fair Oaks Emergency Room and the hospital in Fairfax, VA.

Whenever a nurse/medical tech mentioned steroids, I asked what they knew about Cushing’s. One asked if it was a medication. DUH!

Needless to say, none were very Cushing’s-savvy. So, I gave them all the abbreviated version of my Cushie Story.

I think (and hope!) that they will all remember the day that they met a real live Cushing’s patient.. 

My left knee surgey was supposed to be in early January 2025 but it was snowed out.  Because it was rescheduled for more than a month later, I had to redo some testing.  I was amazed that the doctor in the walk-in clinic knew about Cushing’s although she’d never met a real one in the wild.  I spent a lot of time talking to her.

25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is:

Psalms 116:

“1 I love the LORD, for he heard my voice;he heard my cry for mercy.

 

2 Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live.

 

3 The cords of death entangled me,the anguish of the grave came upon me;I was overcome by trouble and sorrow.

 

4 Then I called on the name of the LORD:”O LORD, save me!”

 

5 The LORD is gracious and righteous;our God is full of compassion.

 

6 The LORD protects the simplehearted;when I was in great need, he saved me….”

 

After I was finished with the long diagnostic process, surgery and several post-op visits to NIH, I was asked to give the scripture reading at my church. The man who did the sermon that week was the survivor of a horrific accident where he and his family were hit by a van while waiting at an airport.

 

I thought I had written down the verse carefully. I practiced and practiced, I don’t like speaking in front of a crowd but I said I would. When I got to church, the verse was different. Maybe I wrote it down wrong, maybe someone changed it. Whatever. When I read this Psalm aloud, I just started crying, it so spoke to me and my situation.

 

Another reading I love is:The Best Day Of My Life by Gregory M Lousignont

 

“Today, when I awoke, I suddenly realized that this is the best day of my life, ever! There were times when I wondered if I would make it to today; but I did! And because I did I’m going to celebrate!

 

Today, I’m going to celebrate what an unbelievable life I have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make me stronger.

 

I will go through this day with my head held high, and a happy heart. I will marvel at God’s seemingly simple gifts: the morning dew, the sun, the clouds, the trees, the flowers, the birds. Today, none of these miraculous creations will escape my notice.

 

Today, I will share my excitement for life with other people. I’ll make someone smile. I’ll go out of my way to perform an unexpected act of kindness for someone I don’t even know.

 

Today, I’ll give a sincere compliment to someone who seems down. I’ll tell a child how special he is, and I’ll tell someone I love just how deeply I care for her and how much she means to me.

 

Today is the day I quit worrying about what I don’t have and start being grateful for all the wonderful things God has already given me.

 

I’ll remember that to worry is just a waste of time because my faith in God and his Divine Plan ensures everything will be just fine.

 

And tonight, before I go to bed, I’ll go outside and raise my eyes to the heavens. I will stand in awe at the beauty of the stars and the moon, and I will praise God for these magnificent treasures.

 

As the day ends and I lay my head down on my pillow, I will thank the Almighty for the best day of my life. And I will sleep the sleep of a contented child, excited with expectation because know tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life, ever!”

 

When I’m feeling down, depressed or low, reading this and “my” Psalm can help me more than anything else.

 

26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: Learn everything you can about your disease.  You know more about your body than anyone else.  If your doctor tells you something that you know to be wrong about *you* – get another doctor!  Don’t waste your life getting good care for yourself.

 

27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: how intolerant other people can be and the discrimination that I have run into, such as not being included in some activity just because my physical limitations would make it inconvenient for them to deal with accommodating me.

 

28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: trying to understand that I wasn’t just fat and lazy, I really had medical issues going on.

 

29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: I like people to know that just because someone looks healthy, they may not be.  There are lots of people out there with invisible illnesses who need understanding, compassion and, possibly, help.

 

30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: like you’re really interested.

 

The 2009 version was pretty close!

Thanks for being interested enough to read this!

Lili, Undiagnosed Bio

May 19, 2019

MaryO Cancer, Thyroid, Undiagnosed , , , , Leave a comment

58 yrs old
have every symptom

blood work 9.86
midnight saliva 0.27
urine not back yet

history: total thyroidectomy 10 yrs ago
cancer free of thyroid for 10 yrs

 

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